Where: Astronomy tower
When: At night
Summary: There's the loving, the fighting and then it returns to loving again :O
Lily looked about warily, not able to relax at all although the night was perfect. She was on the Astronomy Tower. It was near midnight. After curfew plus the most notorious place for students to make out plus Lily did not go in the same sentence. Ever. Why she had agreed to meet him here, she would never know, but if they got caught, he was going to hear it for the rest of his life. Looking over the edge of the tower down at the ground below, she wondered where he was, annoyed, and mentally willed him to get there soon.
James turned up lazily, and a glance at his wrist watch told him he was late. Ah, well, it wasn't his fault. Under his invisibilty cloak, James stepped up into the tower. His eyes had adjusted to the dark by then, and he smiled. Taking off his cloak, he moved over to her. "Long time no see, night owl."
"If I've turned into a night owl, it's your fault," she said, relieved he was there. Turning around, she faced him and smiled. Things were finally getting back to normal... she knew Remus hadn't talked to him yet, but it seemed her story was working for a while. "I was afraid you'd been caught. How'd you get up here without anyone seeing you, anyway? I had an almost run-in with Professor McGonagall a couple times."
James picked his cloak off the ground, and wrapped it around himself again. He smiled under the cloak. "I almost got cornered by Flitwick."
Lily near-oogled at the cloak. "Where'd you get a hold of an Invisibility Cloak!?" she exclaimed, putting her hand out to touch it as if she didn't believe it was there. "They're so rare... I've never seen one, or maybe I have and you've just been under it," she added with a slight smirk, raising her eyes to his.
James pulled the cloak off him, and tossed it carelessly on the ground. "Ah, that's my secret. It's my most prized possession. The amount of times this baby has gotten me out of trouble...ah, I could kiss it."
"You're a sneaky boy, Potter...and yet you seem to not be able to avoid all those detentions," she said with a laugh. Lily suddenly yawned and covered her mouth with her hand. "Hmm... It's so late. Late-night expeditions are just your cup of tea, aren't they?"
whomp my willow: "You can't honestly be tired?!" James exclaimed. He had never-ending energy, that boy. "I've been up since 7 and still rearing to go!"
"You're just much more energetic than me," she said with a roll of her eyes. "But I think I'm still catching up on all that sleep I lost during the NEWTs. I don't think I slept more than eight hours that whole week."
"I didn't either, but I wasn't studying." James grinned, and went over to her, wrapping his arms around her waist.
"Figures," she muttered, but with affection, as she allowed herself to be drawn to him. Lily sighed and put her head against his chest. "I probably don't want to know what, so I won't ask."
"Secret men's business." James grinned, stroking her forearms lightly with his fingers. The view out of the astronomy tower was amazing.
"Mmf. Did I ask?" Lily tried her best to sound annoyed but failed miserably. She adjusted and turned around so that she could see the view from the tower as well, allowing him to support her as she leaned back against him.
James kissed her neck softly, one of his hands pushing some strands of red hair out of his way. As his eyes grazed the top of the sihlouetted trees, and smile lit up on his face.
Lily couldn't see his smile, but could feel it against her neck. "What are you smirking about?" she asked, tilting her head to the side a little.
"Nothing." He murmured, moving his head to catch her lips with his.
"Sure," she said, before allowing the kiss to take place. Once again, she tilted her head a little more to allow him better access and so that she felt more comfortable. With her right arm, she snaked around his neck and ran her fingers softly along the back of his neck.
A soft moan escaped from James' lips, and he deepend their kiss, pulling her closer to him.
She felt the warmth emanating off him as their bodies pressed together. She continued the soft movement of her fingers against his skin, enjoying the reaction it got out of him.
James pulled away from their kiss, and smiled at her. "See why I wanted you to meet me here?"
She smirked and returned her head to its previous place on his shoulder. "I do," she said amusedly. "I think it's quite clear now."
"You know how I...uh...like you quite a bit?" If it wasn't so dark, then the bright red glow of embarrassment would be very evident on James' cheeks.
Lily hadn't been expecting the question, and her emerald eyes sparkled with a quizzical look. "Well, yes, I do," she said with a smile although there was a blush on her cheeks as well.
"Well, uh...I'm really glad...that you're moving in with all of us." James concluded, even though that's not what he was originally going to say.
That wasn't what she had been expecting him to say either and felt a little disappointment in the pit of her stomach. "Yeah, I'm glad too," she said, her voice a bit more dull than it had been before.
He was a bit disappointed in himself. He'd always said jokingly that he loved her, but he wanted to tell her seriously. He sighed, and stayed silent for a moment.
When they lapsed into silence, she knew that it was a lost cause. Echoing his sigh, she took her eyes from his face and raised them to the heavens instead. "It's beautiful out tonight," she said absentmindedly, still stuck in her own thoughts but aware she should end the silence.
"Yeah, yeah it is..." James said absentmindedly. He kissed along her jawline softly.
Although she was disappointed in him, Lily found she couldn't resist the pull of his affections. Maybe she was just being silly and expecting too much out of him, but she had sworn that...
Kissing the tip of her nose, James plucked up the courage and said in a barely audible voice,"I love you."
Lily was surprised, to say the least, that he had sprung it on her just when she had thought he wasn't going to...but she couldn't have been happier. It was uncharacteristic of her to move in so quickly, but she had been analyzing their relationship for a while now. Although it was unfathomable, she was in love with James Potter. To know he felt the same--or to hear it from him--made her feel like she could fly. "I love you too," she whispered and leaned in to give him a long kiss. When they had finally parted, she smiled. "Thanks."
James was more than surprised. He had thought she wasn't going to say it back. Recomposing himself, he said,"Er, why thanks? What did I do?"
"You just made me one of the happiest girls in all of Hogwarts," she told him as if it were obvious. "I hadn't been sure before."
"Hadn't been sure?" James almost choked on his tongue. "I've been after you for years!"
Lily laughed softly. "But I never knew if you were really serious or not," she said. "I mean...you never seemed to take anything seriously back then."
"Well, maybe not, but that doesn't mean I wasn't serious about you!"
Lily rolled her eyes. "You, with your arrogance and boyish ego... You could never tell," she said truthfully.
"I wasn't that arrogant!" James protested.
Lily had to laugh at that. "Oh no, not at all," she said sarcastically. "You were a right modest gentleman."
James rolled his eyes at her. "Well you've got to admit. I was still dashing and charming." He gave her a wink.
She rolled her eyes in return. "Charming? You call hexing people to impress me and running your hand through your hair like you're the coolest thing to step foot in the school charming?"
"Well, the other ladies weren't complaining." James pointed at his crotch to highlight his point.
Lily narrowed her eyes. "Wonderful thing to bring up," she said flatly, walking from his arms and back over to the side of the tower.
"Hey, I was only joking!" James laughed, frowning. Gods, he thought, I hope I haven't actually offended her. He followed her, and touched her right arm lightly. "Lily?"
"I suppose you can't get rid of all the ego no matter what you do, can you?" she asked him in the same tone as she used before.
"At least I'm hone-" James snapped at her, stopping before he finished it. He bit down on his tongue very, very hard. He was beginning to think that was stupidest thing he'd done all week.
"Oh no, please, do finish that," she said harshly, turning around switfly to glare at him. "I'm interested on what you were going to say to prove yourself better than me." Lily didn't know why exactly she was getting so angry... maybe because although he had redeemed himself earlier, he had to go and say something dumb like that...
"I didn't mean-" He didn't finish that sentence, either. How could he say that he didn't mean what he just said? He did. How could he trust her when she was lying to him? James just glared at the ground, instead.
"Will you stop cutting yourself off!?" she burst out suddenly. "Just say what you mean to say, for the love of Merlin!?"
James shrugged. "It doesn't matter." He muttered, moving away from her and walking over to where he'd left his cloak on the ground.
"Yes it does!" she exclaimed, following him and snatching the cloak from the ground before he could get it. "Stop evading!"
"Stop evading? Me?" James spluttered, crossing his arms across his chest. "Fine. Keep the cloak. I don't care. I'm going."
"What's that supposed to mean?" she asked, grabbing his arm with her free hand. "And you can't leave, you'll get caught."
"Then I'll go out the window." Despite himself, James had to crack a small smile. It was possible, too. Although a little too dramatic, perhaps.
"You're evading my questions again!" she said, his smile and joke only making her more annoyed.
"Well you've hardly been answering mine, have you?" James said back, annoyed that she didn't seem to think that she was any worse than him.
"Answering you back?" she asked, raising an eyebrow. "You haven't asked me anything!"
"Don't...don't twist my words!" James looked a little baffled, and pulled his cloak out of her hands.
"Don't snap at me for nothing then!" she exclaimed, incredulousy. She gasped a little when he so quickly took the cloak from her, but her hands balled into fists. "What are you planning to do with that? Run away?"
"Yes, actually." James muttered, his fingers fumbling with the folds. "I love you, Lily, but if you don't tell me the truth...." He shrugged, and the cloak went limp in his hands for a moment. "It just makes me sad to think that you can't trust me."
Her breath caught in her throat, and not in a good way. "James, I..." she stuttered, all her anger lost suddenly. Her eyes turned to the ground. "I...I'm sorry... There's just some things... you're not allowed to know yet. If I could tell you, I would, but it's something beyond my control... I'm afraid it might not be safe to tell you yet."
James' anger windled away. "...what do you mean?" He asked quickly. Just one clue, that's all he needed. Concern was written on his face, and the cloak slipped from his fingers. He didn't bend to pick it up.
"I can't tell you what I mean, that's the problem!" she exclaimed, and she could have sworn she felt something wet run down her cheek. All that pent up stress from the secrecy was getting to her, especially now that she knew things weren't as okay with James as she had thought...
"You're not allowed to tell me?" James asked slowly. Instinctively, his hand reached out and his thumb brushed her tear away gently. Embarrassed, he pulled his hand away quickly. She probably hated him.
"I can tell you, but at the same time I can't and it could get me in trouble and I shouldn't let you know yet even though it's killing me that I can't say anything!" she said quickly and all in one breath, not able to sort out her thoughts at all at the current time.
"Trouble..can't tell me..." James nodded, making a series of mental notes. He swallowed, and ran a hand through his hair. "I'm sorry I made you upset." He whispered, looking like a naughty boy who'd just been caught stealing.
"It's not you," she said quietly after a long bout of silence. Sighing, Lily sank to the ground, feeling a little drained from their argument, however short. "It's... been building up for a while. I'm bringing it upon myself and it would be easier to just get out with it but I'm afraid to right now."
"Afraid?" James sat down next to her, leaning his head against the wall. "Why afraid? You're not in some kind of trouble, are you?"
She shook her head, still not daring to look at him. He probably thought she was a complete drama queen for how she had acted. "Not trouble, at least I don't think it could be called that. I could be in if I let it slip to too many people."
"A...secret?" James asked. He was very concerned about Lily, but he could help trying to delve into the subject further. The slightest hint might help him. If she wasn't going to tell him, he was going to find out himself.
Lily knew that he was trying to get information, but she couldn't help but keep answering his questions. If she couldn't yet tell him herself, he at least deserved something. "A big secret...something I'll have to keep for the rest of my life."
"What could possible be that important?" It was more a question to himself, and his feet were itching to go straight to Sirius, or the library, or even write an owl to his dad.
"You probably...already know. If what he" --she was referring to Remus, while purposely keeping his name out of it "--said was true. Or maybe you don't, from what you told me," she answered cryptically.
whomp my willow: James just blinked at her. "Who's...he?" A sudden, horrifying though struck him. Was she having an affair, or something?
"Don't worry about who he is," she said. "If I told you who he was, you'd bother him about it and he's just trying to help me. I don't want him to be any more inconvenienced by this than he is already."
James shrugged. "As long as he's only helping you." He tried to crack a smile, but it failed. His hand touched her knee lightly.
"What did you think he was doing?" she asked suspiciously, already knowing the answer. "You don't have to worry," Lily told him, her eyes glancing to his hand. "He's someone who would never think of doing that to you."
"Marauder?" James asked instinctively. The three people he trusted the most. That and Dumbledore and his father. He wasn't sure where Lily fitted on that list yet.
"I'm not going to say," she said, suddenly nervous. She really didn't want him to know it was Remus while the secret was still determined as too risky to share. "That's trying to narrow it down too much."
James looked at her doubtfully. Why would she tell one of the Marauders, but not him? But then again, who would 'never do that to him'? "...okay."
Lily sighed. She could see the wheels of his mind turning as he tried so hard to figure out exactly what was going on. "I told you that I can't tell you yet... He told me that I should if and when we get more serious," she said, fighting down a blush. "As he put it, I mean."
"I understand. I'm..I'm sorry I was so...accusing.." James was quite embarrassed. Even though he was still uneasy she wasn't telling him, he did feel rather sheepish. "I just thought that that meant you didn't love me, or didn't trust me..."
Lily looked alarmed at that confession. "No, please don't ever think that!" she exclaimed, hoping to Merlin that he didn't still. "It... it's not that at all. I can't believe that I'm saying this because in any other situation I would have called it foolish, but... I do love you... a lot. And I trust you with my life..."
James wrapped his arm around her waist, feeling half guilty about all the things he had said to her. "I love you too, Lily. I really, really do. I was just worried."
"I understand, but I don't really blame you for going off at me for not telling you the truth," she said. "I mean, it was nothing to how I'd been yelling at myself."
He pulled her in closer to himself, murmuring in her ear,"Let's never fight again?"
She raised and eyebrow. "That's a rather tall order, especially seeing as we're the two people in Hogwarts infamous for getting into spats with each other," she said.
James chuckled. "No wonder we shock Gryffindor with our late night antics."
Lily blushed enough for the red tint to her cheeks to be seen through the darkness. "I'm sure no one was expecting us to be together, much less civil to one another."
James shrugged. "I didn't expect it, but I hoped fiercly." There was a tinge of embarrassment in his voice; although she must of known how much he wanted to be with her over the last few years.
"Until about three months ago, I didn't even hope it," she said, beating him out for sounding embarrassed. "I didn't realize...until I thought it was too late. That killed me, you know?"
"It's never too late. Anyway, everyone always gets together at the very end. Look at us. Graduating is within reach, now." James kissed her cheek lightly.
"Well, I've obviously found that out now," she said. "And do you have to remind me that we're graduating so soon? There's literally no time left here." With a sigh, Lily sunk down to the side so that she was laying with her head in his lap and gazing up at the stars. "I didn't realize it until now."
"I guess we better go look at that apartment as soon as we're out the door, then. Mum's eyes will no doubt well up when I leave but Dad will just say,'See you at work', " James laughed.
Lily found herself laughing along with him. "I think Dad might cling for a bit before letting me go while Mum'll just ask when the first time she can visit is...that's another thing I haven't thought about, though. We'll be living in the Wizarding World. I can't believe that I'm almost completely detatched from the Muggle world. Save my parents being there, that's really no longer a part of me."
"I've always lived in the wizarding world, it's not that big a step for me. And, I've lived with Sirius before. Never girls, though." James put on a fake scared expression.
Lily slapped him playfully on the arm. "Oh please. That's no challenge to living with other men. We don't leave our stuff laying around and we know how to cook," she said very matter-of-factly. "I'm probably going to miss the Muggle world, though, so don't be surprised if I end up bringing a television or a telephone into the apartment."
"You bloody won't! I'll get scared to death everytime the fellytone bloody beeps at me, or...whatever it does!" James said, looking shocked.
Lily had to blink a few times, looking at him as if he were absurd. "It rings, and I'm sure you'll get used to it. It's much easier and comfortable to communicate through than a fireplace, that's for sure."
whomp my willow: "No-one else will have one, so there will be no-one to communicate with!" James insisted.
"I can call my parents in the Muggle world, now can't I?" she asked with raised eyebrows. "Everyone in the Muggle world has one."
"Everyone? Are you serious?" James' eyes boggled. "It's much easier just to Floo over, or send an owl."
"Do you even know how a telephone works?" she asked, slightly amused that he knew this little, even if he grew up a wizard. "It's much easier than Floo or owls."
"How can anything be easier? No, I prefer our way much better. Muggles should really try it sometime." James joked.
"You just don't want to admit that you really don't know what a telephone is and have never used one in your life," Lily told him.
"I know what it is, thankyou!" James protested.
"No you don't," Lily said, narrowing her eyes. "All you do to telephone someone is pick it up, dial a number, and talk. You don't stress your hand writing a long letter, have instant response, and don't have to move to do it."
"Dial a number? Any number? Seriously? So the telephone like...knows...who you want to speak to? That's...wow." James looked excited.
"Not what you're thinking. Everyone has a number assigned to their telephone. You have to dial in their number to talk to them," she said. "Remember, our Muggle devices aren't psychic."
"But there's only 9 numbers, and there must be millions of Muggles!" James couldn't grasp the concept.
Lily covered her mouth with her hand as she shook with laughter. "Oh Merlin, you'd be a riot in the Muggle world," she said through giggles. "I think I've said it before, but... I advise you not to go there without me."
"It's not funny! It makes no bloody sense!" James said crossly, like a small child who couldn't understand his homework.
Sitting up, Lily attempted to kiss him, but couldn't as she was laughing too hard and ended up with her face buried in his chest instead. "Oh my, that has to be the best thing I've ever heard out of you..." she said, breathlessly.
James shrugged off his crossness and managed a small chuckle. "I suppose some things won't ever really make sense, am I right?" He kissed the top of her head. "We better head back now, anyway. We need our sleep before we're released into the real world."
"Yeah, I guess you're right," she said, still not able to calm down completely. "I'll have to explain it to you later."
"It's a lost cause, I'm afraid. Although I admire their determination to make things work without magic." He stood up, and helped to pull her up.
"You're so oblivious...you're just off understanding," she told him, giving him a quick peck on the nose when she was standing again.
Taking her hand, they started to walk down from the astronomy tower. James shrugged. "Maybe I should of done Muggle Studies, then."
"Yes, you probably should have. Though I'd feel infinite pity for the professor having to teach you," Lily said truthfully. "One number to each Muggle... Merlin bless me, I'm not going to forget that anytime soon..."
James rolled his eyes at her. "Give me a break. I grew up believing the Muggles were a myth, for awhile. Like Santa Claus, or something. My father spent weeks convincing me."
"You thought we were a myth?" she asked, disbelieving. "Though I guess I can't talk, because witches and wizards are usually evil and only exist in books in the Muggle world."
James shrugged. "Silly. Only some of us are evil."
"The word witch has a very bad connotation over there. I don't know if there's many books I've read where a witch doesn't mean an ugly old woman doing some sort of evil spells on children," she said, having to be amused by how much of a misconception they had.
James snorted. "Talk about ignorant. For one thing, I know one witch who's definately the opposite of an ugly old woman." He kissed her neck lightly as the walked along. Luckily James had remembered to grab his invisibilty cloak, but until then he'd stupidly hung onto it under his arm. He laughed at himself, and took a second the throw it over the top of them
Lily was relieved that he had remembered the cloak because she wouldn't have, caught up in wondering how James got such misconceptions about telephones. "I'm taking that as a compliment, if you don't mind," she told him playfully, walking closer to him now that they had to both fit under the cloak.
Upon reaching the common room, James muttered the password. Once safely inside, he took the cloak off them, and turned to face her. "Well, thanks. It was a nice night." He threw the cloak over his shoulder.
"Well, yes, the parts which didn't include me yelling at you," she said with a smirk and rose up on her toes to plant a kiss on his lips.
James smiled against her lips, and pulled away after a long moment. "We better get some sleep." He said, and reluctantly nodded towards the boy's dorm wing. "I'm heading in that direction. Goodnight, Lily."
"Good night," she replied, and slipped off towards the stairs to the girls' dorms.